160.6

HAHA!!! I'm almost there. How exciting. I know once I get past that last pound, I'll be happy and feeling like I'm actually losing weight.

So, I gave my speech yesterday. I really do suck at giving speeches. I mean, it's okay, I did it... But I was nervous! I looked good, though. I dressed up in my leopard print dress. Lol. But yes, it was fun anyway.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that last summer, while I was at the fabric store, I ran into this couple who were photographers and wanted to use me as a model in one of their photoshoots. My ex-boyfriend, unsupportive as he was, said pretty much that I wasn't allowed to do it, because I might get raped or killed or whatever. Like I wouldn't have brought friends and reinforcements. Anyway, I thought that I had lost their card, but this weekend I found it in one of my old purses!! So, right now I'm trying to gain the courage to call them and ask them if the offer is still on the table or not. I'd love to get some professional pictures done.

162.4

Not too shabby. The weekend left me bored, lethargic and feeling snacky. But I think I did alright. I'm really trying soooo hard just to get into the 50's, but it's turning out to be harder than I thought.

Today I have to give a speech on the rockabilly subculture in my speech class. I didn't get too much sleep last night because I'm a procrastinator. But hey, I got it done. Just need to finish up the notecards.

Next weekend I'm going to be entering a horse show. I'm going to ride my little girl western and see how that turns out. Nothing major, pretty much just to get her out seeing new things and see how she acts in the ring. I'm excited, though!

I really think that's all for today. Man, I'm tired.

162.6

I think I've figured something out. Looking at how both Chelsea and I diet, it seems to me that we're still losing weight, despite exactly how badly we eat. Maybe it's the whole guilt thing, but I've steadily lost weight. I'm not losing AS MUCH as I'd like to as quickly, but you know, I'm losing weight, so that's the bottom line, right? I'm pretty freaking excited about that. I really think I'm going to cross the line from 160 to 159 pretty soon. I'm getting over that hump and doing all sorts of terrible things to it as I whiz past it. :D

163.2

Haha, I lost two-tenths of a pound. Yay. That almost makes me feel... pathetic. But, I did eat some nasty ass carbs that almost killed me for the rest of the day. I'm hypoglycemic, so pasta makes me SUPER sleepy. I rode my horse for about 30 minutes and by the time we were done, we were both sweaty. Then I went to the gym with my coworker, finally, and we did fat burning workouts and went on the weight lifting machines. I thought I might have lost some more weight this morning, but I guess I'll have to eat well AND exercise to get any results.

In other news, my boyfriend got a roommate and an apartment to live in. It's rather exciting, since we both live with our parents right now. :P

I also have to write a speech on the rockabilly subculture, so I've been struggling with that. Mainly just getting it all down what I want to say. There's a nice outline that we can follow, so I'm not too worried, but my procrastination is kinda killing me right now.

Anyway, I'm sleepy still and I need to get ready for my day. Here's to more dieting!

163.4

Whoa, hey... so, yesterday was my boyfriend's birthday. So, I decided to do something special for him and get a Brazilian wax. Let me just say that I REALLY love my boyfriend because I did that for him. I'm gonna have to do it again to keep it up, but shit, that hurt. At least the lady that did it was nice!

In dieting news, I ate pretty darn healthy yesterday. Yogurt, 100 calorie snack for breakfast; chicken noodle soup, a few potato chips for lunch; and salmon, green beans, spinach salad for dinner. And today, I've had a bowl of miso soup (35 calories) and a 100 calorie snack. YAY! I feel better, even though I'm starving :P.

I'm supposed to take pictures tonight, so we'll see how that turns out. I'll post them tomorrow, hopefully.

163.4

Just a quick note for today...

Okay, so I was eating pretty well yesterday, until dinner rolled around. I decided to go for some Hamburger Helper because I was starving and, frankly, I wanted something that tasted good! However, I'm paying for it this morning. Not weight-wise or anything, but you should be able to figure it out without me being any more graphic that what I've already said. :P

Anyway, other than my indiscretion last night, I'm doing pretty well. By midday, I'm only downing about 500-600 calories. So I'm doing good! It's my boyfriend's birthday and his mom is making burritos and cheesecake. I'm gonna eat something a little less... caloric. I'm off to start my day!

Blah.

I know the scale's gonna be higher tomorrow... I really need to workout every night. My coworker was supposed to take me with her to her gym tonight, but she FLAKED so I stayed home and did 20 tricep curls (on each side) with an 8 lb. barbell, a short ride on the something-or-other rider in our family room and one side each of a modern dance routine from my dance class. The latter, amazingly, was the most envigorating. The tricep curls felt pretty good, too, though.

So, it's hard working in an office when lovely, nice, sweet, caring patients bring you COOKIES. Haha... I just keep thinking, "Water! Drink that water!!!" Or apples. I love apples now. Best 100 calories I could ever eat.

I did eat too much today. I was expecting a workout, so I stored up like 200 calories more than I should have. Oh well. I'm actually doing pretty good. A snack for me now is a bowl of lettuce with some 45-calorie per serving Thousand Island dressing (SOOOO delish!), an apple, 100 calorie packs, water, and chicken noodle soup (only 150 calories for the WHOLE can!!!).

It's simply amazing what you can eat and not eat... Did you know that only one tablespoon of butter is 100 calories??? So get out that cooking spray if you want to make some eggs! :P Alright you crazy kids, I'm off to bed. I'm exhausted, my new kitty is being ignored so that she can assimilate into our odd family, and my loyal cat is waiting on me to stop typing on this laptop. 'Night!

161.8

I really shouldn't be posting my weigh everyday, but the starvation (not really, just cutting calories) is making me presumptuous. So I'm down almost 6 pounds in two days. Yesterday I probably had a total of 1500 calories, but most of that was burned off with 2 hours and 45 minutes of dance (modern and social) and then I went out and rode my horse for a good 30 minutes. I'm trying to teach her how to be a western horse, which is becoming super fun. To top it off, my new kitten, Una, has been keeping me spry and my boyfriend doesn't hurt, either.

Okay, so here are those promised photos of my fat ass. Two weeks ago. Pretty gnarley, but I must bear all to keep me motivated.

The ass...



The belly...



And here's my boyfriend and I being fat and sassy with ourselves...



Well, that's all for now. Diet's going well. Chelsea is my inspiration! :P Thanks, doll.

Burned Calories Counter

This website will tell me how many calories I burn per activity I do. So horseback riding does more than walking. So I'm gonna hop on my horse for longer than I normally do! :D

167.2

So here I am, back at this stupid diet. I drifted because of my birthday and the Superbowl and and and... Excuses are like assholes, right? I looked up my BMI (Body Mass Index) and it says I'm overweight. Yeah. So. I'm fat.

This morning, I had two pieces of bacon I cooked in the microwave - about 200 calories. I'm going to down my fiber pills with calcium and a BIG glass of water after I write this...

No, wait a minute, I'll do it right now...

Still working on the water, but at least I got the pills down. Queen of Procrastination = Yours Truly. I think that's just my problem is the motivation... and I'm constantly thinking that I have time to change my body. When I really need to change how I eat. NOW.

Yesterday I had miso soup for breakfast and dinner, 90 calories a pop, but I went out for sushi with my mom for lunch. I didn't pig out like I normally do, but all that rice can't be real great for me.

My boyfriend will be doing a photoshoot for me this upcoming weekend. My mom will be out of town so I'll have a little privacy. We have this great leopard print chaise longue that I'm going to pose on. I just need to get a little outfit together, get some fabric for a background drape and starve myself (IT FEELS LIKE IT! :P). I'm trying. I really am.

I also need to start on some strength training. I really need to do some sit ups with a weight on me. I think that'll be good for now. I'm going to try to target my abs, butt, arms, thighs... Wow, the whole body. I'm gonna punch myself. Ow.